thanksgiving, and high hopes

so for the past few weeks, ive noticed it a little bit harder to get into my jeans...and when shilo had to help me the other night, i knew i had a problem on my hands. so on monday, i invested in a personal trainer. id like to run a marathon. (that kinda reminded me of the pink panther...i would like to buy a hamburger)
so i have two, mel and adrian, and today was my first real session. and me, ciri, being the absolute complete idiot that i am, didnt eat before. well, i did eat. two sugar cookies and a diet coke dont really count though. my excuse? ive been working since 7 this morning and im broke! so after doing what felt like intense stuff, i almost passed out. you know that feeling you get where your whole body goes numb and you get cold and see stars? yea, i totally got that. and it was intensified by like 100, when i found out i weighed in at 109! so then, adrian had to go get a protein shake for me, and i felt a little better...but omh, i was still so embarassed. i used to be so much smarter than that! we ended up talking and he seems like a pretty cool guy. i feel bad he gets to see me all sweaty and grunting. that has to be an unfortunate sight. im pretty sure my looks of determination are not attractive at all in the slightest bit. as far as going over my diet, im not eating enough protein and a freaking lot of carbs. so, im about to make a trip to the grocery store and pick up some protein-i-fied items, as well as some green vegetables. too bad i hate turkey or tomorrow might be pretty cool.
speaking of tomorrow, im headed over to the colledges for thanksgiving in the morning. i decided i wanted to cook my grannys homemade macaroni and cheese. i told my mom today of my plans and she gave me this warning, "be careful and dont drain all the water from the noodles. i made it one year when we had a dinner at your friends' the mcmurtreys and no one touched it." so with that in mind, i thought about doing a trial run tonight to see how it fairs, but now that i think about it, im pretty lazy and if it turns out ok, why would i make it again in the morning?
eating all day tomorrow? gym 9am on friday? i still feel so embarassed about it all. oh well, im ciri, queen of awkward anyway. its almost my middle name!